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  • Writer's pictureMarquita Paulk

While we wait..

If you read my previous post “2022" then you know 2022 was a hard year for my family & I.

BUT GOD!! He NEVER left us, not once. During our church fall revival last year, one pastor in particular preached a message and urged us to see the “miracle IN the miracle.” And mannnnnn! It really just made me reflect even more on last year.

I️ told you- last year was hard year for us! In more ways than one- financial hardships, lots of medical/health concerns for my family, lost loved ones, broken relationships. I️ mean (go read my last post.) BUT that particular pastor reminded us that while we are WAITING to see the fulfillment of the BIG Miracle that God is going to do- we have to see the "small miracles" he is performing in our waiting for "THE" miracle.

So, I’m going to share those "not-so-small" miracles that we've experienced along the way in our waiting:

  1. My household went from having 5 different sources of income to 2… yes, TWO (with only ONE of those being CONSISTENT) and while- it hasn’t been easy AT ALL we haven’t skipped a beat! We had to sacrifice a TON of “wants” but we never lacked a SINGLE NEED. Throughout this time- GOD HAS PROVIDED and he’s STILL providing. I️ can’t even count the number of times that people randomly blessed us- most didn't even know of the struggle we were facing. I️ can’t count how many times, my husband came home with a load of groceries & essentials for the house that I️ KNOW we didn’t pay for but God put on someone’s heart to do for us. I️ can’t even count the number of times people RANDOMLY called us and said - go get groceries on me. 😭 I️ can’t count the number of times that UNEXPECTED checks just showed up in our mailbox last year. I can’t count the number of times people called me asking “What size clothes are the kids in? I have a tote full of clothes in good condition to give to y’all for them!” I️ can’t count the number of times people unexpectedly volunteered to pay for our food or for our gas. God carried us the WHOLE year! It literally blows my mind how we went from 5 sources of income to 2 and we didn't lose a single thing. I don’t say this to brag on us because listen to me and hear me clearly: THERE IS NOTHING SPECIAL ABOUT LEONARD & MARQUITA PAULK- NOTHING. I️  say this to brag on JESUS CHRIST! He is FAITHFUL! He never let us down. He said he would take care of us and he has done JUST that. When you are faithful to God- HE WILL BE FAITHFUL TO YOU! 🙌🏾🙌🏾 He will cause people to bless you and they don’t even know why. So, while we are still waiting for God to perform our BIG miracle- which we️ KNOW is coming (mark my words) we have been obedient to him doing things he’s asked us to do, giving up things... and even jobs he asked us to give up. Because of our obidience, he has sustained us! It's hard not knowing how you’re going to pay for this or that or where the money is going to come from to make sure we can cover this or that ESPECIALLY when children are involved BUT GOD! 🙌🏾 We are right where he wants US to be and he has proven that we can put ALLLLLLLL of our faith and trust in HIM! THAT is just ONE miracle while we are waiting for "THE" miracle.

  2. Health Concerns. My Dad was back and forth in the hospital multiple times in the last few years and almost every time- it was an extended stay. Well, last year while I was pregnant, he was found at home unresponsive and rushed to the hospital. Not knowing the outcome- I completely lost it. It was such a hard time watching the paramedics do everything they could to get him stable and to get the help he needed. Another time last year he went, he was having all kind of crazy hallucinations while in the hospital because of an infection that he had. It was hard for ME and I never stayed overnight with him so I can’t even fathom how my Mom felt. When we would call or visit him, he would say things that made NO sense at all. It was horrible and scary and I’ll never forget the night my Mom called my husband in the middle of the night. We were sleep but I️ just so happened to wake up. I️ couldn’t hear what my mom was saying but I️ heard it in my husband’s voice that it was serious. He said “ok, we’re on our way right now.” Not knowing what was going on, trying to remain calm- I️ looked at my husband with tears in my eyes just praying he wasn't going to say what I️ thought he was. Apparently they called a “Code-stroke” on my Dad. Based on symptoms, he was treated as if he had a stroke (better to be safe than sorry) and my mom had to leave the room. When we showed up to the hospital she had tears in her eyes but she remained as calm as she could. It was like everyone had thoughts in their mind of what COULD happen because during this time we had no idea what was going on with my Dad. We all were out of the loop but we all just kept those crazy thoughts barried and we prayed! I️ remember several family members walking in that night in the lobby, all ready to pray. Later, we found out he DIDN'T have a stroke! 🙌🏾 We don't even know what happened so, I like to think of it now as God was just doing HIS work. My Dad is still here! He's doing great! 🙌🏾 This is just ONE incident about him.

  3. My health. So while pregnant, one of concerns from my OB was the fact that my blood pressure was consistently high. It was to the point that I️ could no longer see the providers I️ wanted to see. I was all of a sudden seeing a different provider since I was labeled "high-risk." I️ was told that I️ had chronic hypertension (high blood pressure) at the time I was 29 years old. I was prescribed medication that I was supposed to take daily. I felt horrible about it and couldn't help but think "I am only 29" hearing that I had high blood pressure and was prescribed medication to take daily. The miracle is God allowed me to find a holistic doctor and do a full workup. I️ began changing small things in my diet, exercising more and started my custom supplements. Before I️ knew it, my blood pressure was normal, consistently. I️ haven't had to take the prescribed medication since. 🙌🏾 We've significantly changed our diet since then and I'm claiming that "high blood pressure" is a thing of the past for me.

  4. My baby girl! 😭 During that same pregnancy, as stated, there was a lot of talk about my pregnancy being high-risk... it was one thing after another during my entire pregnancy and all the way through labor and delivery. It was like we'd get one thing settled or figured out (like the blood pressure) then all of a sudden something else would come up. Most of the time it was something physical AND something going on in life at the same time. It was an emotional roller coaster, to say the least. I️ did all that I️ could on my end but things ultimately still did not go according to plan, or I️ should say, according to MY plan. The experience was traumatic not only for me but for my husband, family & my baby girl too. We endured a rough patch, a hard time BUT GOD! My baby is alive, well and thriving! She's beautiful and sweet and I️ am still here to tell the story! 🙌🏾

What I'm saying here is that alllllll along God has been performing miracles. It may not be "THE" miracle that we are praying for, YET ...but he's BEEN performing miracles! All I️ can do is say THANK YOU GOD and continue to trust him.

Mark my words: HE will do JUST what he said when he's ready and when he does- I️ want to remember these moments. I️ want to remember where he brought us from, remember what he carried us through. (Those listed above and those not listed.) When God performs that miracle that ONLY he can, HE will get the glory! All the glory belongs to HIM... ALWAYS.

“‘O Lord God, You have only begun to show Your servant Your greatness and Your mighty hand; for what god is there in heaven or on earth that can do such works and mighty acts (miracles) as Yours?”

‭‭Deuteronomy‬ ‭3‬:‭24‬ ‭AMP‬‬

He has only JUST begun... watch. ♥️

Until next time.


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